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I just got up from a half-hour nap. I know I was only lying down for about 32 minutes, because I have obejctive measurements which confirm it. It totally felt like a full night's sleep...sort of.
You know how when you lie down to go to sleep there's that period where you're lying there and you can't stop the voice(s) in your head chattering about one thing or another? Over the last couple days I've had a couple of experiences during that stage where I felt this sensation as though I'd just dropped about an inch, and after an initial jolt, I seemed to relax and slow down. Kind of neat.
I can't remember if that happened just now or not. What did happen was related, though. Hmmm...I'm going to try to get this written in a way that makes sense, but my memory is playing some tricks on me, so this is tricky.
I remember feeling a typical waking from sleep sensation (that initial feeling that you've lost time and you're not really sure how much?). Then, before I started thinking about whether to get up or not or any of that, I noticed that my body felt really heavy...sort of...maybe thick. It felt almost as though I were bound to the bed and couldn't move...except that I alternated between being aware that there was nothing but a sheet and my trouble moving was in my head and moving would be no problem if I wanted, and feeling as though I were stuck in place, muffled by the air thickening about me or my muscles not responding or something. (It's a little hard to explain...there was no localization or force to the resistance as there would be if I were tied down or my sheet were holding me down, just the resistance to motion. I guess it was kind of as though gravity had been cranked up and was holding me in place, but slightly gentler even than that.) Then I noticed a sensation similar to that just-before-sleep thinking, only it was kind of slower and more relaxed.
Somewhere in there I think I realized that some of the sensations I was having were false and dreamlike. I was pretty much dreaming about lying in bed thinking and not quite falling asleep. I was getting some other weird false-sensations too occasionally...usually brief moments of feeling like cold metal was touching my legs, things like that. And it drifted in and out with an even more dreamlike state where, well, I was dreaming...little snatches of scenes from dreams alternating with me being bondlessly bound to my bed thinking and waiting to fall asleep--but with a sense of time slowed, as though I were lying there thinking at one speed, but observing it on a slow-motion setting.
It felt like I spent hours lying there failing to fall asleep, interspersed with occasionally dropping into sleep and having odd dreams. Exactly like a full night of sleeping just at the threshold where you keep barely waking enough to notice you've been sleeping and dreaming, then immediately dropping back to sleep. Then my alarm went off and I had to convince myself that only half an hour had passed. I feel, physically, rather as though I'd gotten a normal, restful, full night's sleep after being sleep deprived for a number of days. There's still a bit of tiredness lurking around the edges, but there's a large feeling of restfulness sitting in front of it.
That experience alone may have justified a week of sleep deprivation.
You know how when you lie down to go to sleep there's that period where you're lying there and you can't stop the voice(s) in your head chattering about one thing or another? Over the last couple days I've had a couple of experiences during that stage where I felt this sensation as though I'd just dropped about an inch, and after an initial jolt, I seemed to relax and slow down. Kind of neat.
I can't remember if that happened just now or not. What did happen was related, though. Hmmm...I'm going to try to get this written in a way that makes sense, but my memory is playing some tricks on me, so this is tricky.
I remember feeling a typical waking from sleep sensation (that initial feeling that you've lost time and you're not really sure how much?). Then, before I started thinking about whether to get up or not or any of that, I noticed that my body felt really heavy...sort of...maybe thick. It felt almost as though I were bound to the bed and couldn't move...except that I alternated between being aware that there was nothing but a sheet and my trouble moving was in my head and moving would be no problem if I wanted, and feeling as though I were stuck in place, muffled by the air thickening about me or my muscles not responding or something. (It's a little hard to explain...there was no localization or force to the resistance as there would be if I were tied down or my sheet were holding me down, just the resistance to motion. I guess it was kind of as though gravity had been cranked up and was holding me in place, but slightly gentler even than that.) Then I noticed a sensation similar to that just-before-sleep thinking, only it was kind of slower and more relaxed.
Somewhere in there I think I realized that some of the sensations I was having were false and dreamlike. I was pretty much dreaming about lying in bed thinking and not quite falling asleep. I was getting some other weird false-sensations too occasionally...usually brief moments of feeling like cold metal was touching my legs, things like that. And it drifted in and out with an even more dreamlike state where, well, I was dreaming...little snatches of scenes from dreams alternating with me being bondlessly bound to my bed thinking and waiting to fall asleep--but with a sense of time slowed, as though I were lying there thinking at one speed, but observing it on a slow-motion setting.
It felt like I spent hours lying there failing to fall asleep, interspersed with occasionally dropping into sleep and having odd dreams. Exactly like a full night of sleeping just at the threshold where you keep barely waking enough to notice you've been sleeping and dreaming, then immediately dropping back to sleep. Then my alarm went off and I had to convince myself that only half an hour had passed. I feel, physically, rather as though I'd gotten a normal, restful, full night's sleep after being sleep deprived for a number of days. There's still a bit of tiredness lurking around the edges, but there's a large feeling of restfulness sitting in front of it.
That experience alone may have justified a week of sleep deprivation.
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