Reflections

[marcmagus]

I've been wanting to post an entry in here for a while, but, although I have a lot that I want to say, I can't seem to keep it in the front of my mind long enough for it to become something coherent. So I think I'm just going to try to get some stuff out as I think of it.



Congratulations to my brother, who graduated last Friday! I flew down waytooearly Thursday so I could be there, and stayed through Sunday. Although it was only one timezone off, something about the trip seems to have greatly messed up my sleeping. I'm not sure if it was the lack of enough sleep the night before I left and inadequate sleep on hotel beds, or something else. It was neat to see Nashville, see the Vanderbilt campus, see his Thai restaurant, see the horrible dorm room he endured for a year, and generally get a feel for what it was like down there.

My student loan application went through, so Vassar should get the money they need to release my diploma and transcript, and I'll be joining the ranks of people with college debt. I just noticed something interesting — they can't take an education away from you if you default on your student loan as they can your car if you default on an auto loan . . ..

DoS approved my drop, so I don't have to fail the class I never took. With any luck, Student Accounts will proceed to not charge me for the aforementioned class.

I've just printed out last semester's final examination for my one class. Yes, that's right, I'm actually going to study for my final. By my calculations, I might need to do fairly well on the final to pass the course, and I don't want to take chances with this, so I'm taking unusual precautions. My professor has indicated that he uses an odd variation on curving grades which makes it a bit difficult for me to predict how well I need to do.

Assuming all goes well with the aforementioned items, I'll be marching on Sunday, 25 May with the Class of 2003. My friends can all consider themselves invited, although I know many of you won't be able to make it. I'm looking forward to finally putting an end to this book of my life and moving on to the next.

This means I need to start looking for work again. Minimally, I need to start looking for work hard enough to start collecting on unemployment benefits again, since those haven't quite run out on me yet. I also need to talk with the friendly people in the CDO about my options regarding graduate schools and the like, as I'd like to seriously consider the possibility of becoming a professor at a college which focuses on teaching. Even barring that, there's still a lot that I'd like to study while I'm potentially selling my services getting computers to do what people want them to.

I've had a minor round of spring cleaning over the last week or so. My apartment isn't really presentable yet, but the kitchen is feeling more usable again. I'm setting a goal of having a usable floor by commencement. This may become necessary if I'm putting anybody up for the night commencement weekend, although I'm not sure if I will be. I'd like to get my futon frame finally built my mid-June. I think I'll target end-of-July for a working television and a DVD player — whether I stay in the Poughkeepsie area or not, it's about time to start getting those Babylon 5 DVDs I keep claiming I'm going to get.

I'm not sure why, but I've been noticing mirrors a lot recently. The bathroom at The Palace has facing mirrors, which unnerved me when I noticed it, and both continues to make me uncomfortable, and has made me aware of the locations of mirrors everywhere I go. I'm not entirely sure why I'm so hyper-aware of this, but it's been coloring my life.

I've re-started the occasional Raymond Parlor Poker Nights. I hadn't realized how much I'd missed them until we started again. Overall, I think I've approximately broken even, which is good. I'm still proud of myself that I played a hand perfectly the other night — perhaps overly proud considering that it wasn't a particularly difficult hand to play. I should be more proud of getting soulchanger to fold to my garbage last week. Ok, I guess I am; it's just less fresh in my memory.

There's more, but this is already long-winded enough, and social dinner is about to start. I don't want to be late for that, and I don't want to miss Buffy, so I'm going to stop now. Anybody who read this far, I appreciate that you're interested enough in my life to have endured all of that.

Comments

[amyamy.livejournal.com]

I also need to talk with the friendly people in the CDO about my options regarding graduate schools and the like,

Well, I'll be there all summer. :)

*blink*

[miintikwa.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure why, but I've been noticing mirrors a lot recently. The bathroom at The Palace has facing mirrors, which unnerved me when I noticed it, and both continues to make me uncomfortable, and has made me aware of the locations of mirrors everywhere I go. I'm not entirely sure why I'm so hyper-aware of this, but it's been coloring my life.

*watches the clue-by-four hovering behind Magus' head...*

*would tell him to duck, but knows it's kind of useless*

Congrats, darling. I'm really glad to hear you'll be putting college behind you, for now. And give my best wishes to Jon, belatedly. :)

*kisses*
--K

Re: *blink*

[marcmagus]

I'd appreciate your input if you think there's something more specific than "I noticed something and now I'm hypersensitive to it" Although if you're suggesting that it's because I'm coming to the end of one phase of my life and beginning of another, and I'm looking back on the past as suggested in the title of this last journal entry, I don't really think that's what it is.

gaaah...

[bluemilker.livejournal.com]

Realizing that this was obviously the most important part of this entry:

How dare you continue to play poker without me? Now I must rant and scream because no poker game ever manages to coalesce over here in manhattan.

Blah... soon I will have to start earning money in ways that are respectable, or even legal.