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[11:16 - 11:47] I came out of this sleep cycle quite tired, and had difficulty getting up. For a good chunk of the wake cycle following I had a bit of trouble concentrating, though not too bad. Sleep deprivation.
[15:00 - 16:01] That was an hour? It shouldn't have been...I know I stayed in bed a little long, but I would have put it closer to 45 minutes. Huh. I had a lot of trouble getting out of bed after this sleep cycle, and actually gave up for a few minutes and waited for my secondary alarm, but I didn't think the gap tot hat secondary was so long (it's usually been 10-15 minutes that I've set it for). Ah, well, this is the only record I have. I was very tired for a good hour after I dragged myself out of bed, too. At some point, though, I got an n+1th wind (I think I'm beyond second here). By the time the time came around for my next sleep, I was almost too alert. I had to drag myself away from things to go lie down and dropping into sleep was difficult.
[19:54 - 20:26] Perfect. The alarm went off and I awoke and got up and felt fine, just a little tired. Continued fine through to the next sleep, which I made sure to do on time this time.
[23:59 - 00:30] Spot on. "This is easy," I thought. It was like it was at the con...a little general tiredness/sleep deprivation in the background of my awareness, but not so much that it was a big deal. Most people go through their entire lives with this amount of sleep dep, covering it up with caffeine.
[04:45 - 05:18] Another easy one. I can handle this. I started to get really exhausted around 07:30, though...but found ways to keep myself occupied and push on to the four-hour mark. Not so bad. I need to keep remembering how important it is to keep myself occupied.
[08:51 - 09:25] So tired! I had to drag myself out of bed like one of those days where you feel like crap and don't want to do anything but lounge around in bed and evade responsibility. I'm not very good at that. I pulled it off though, and I'm awake and here to report. Up for half an hour and I still feel really tired, but it's starting to fade a bit. To some extent, I think this experience of demonstrating to myself that I can get up when I'm exhausted and it gets better may be the most important part of this whole thing . . . learning to awaken when I don't want to like most functional people have learned. That I'm up right now (and didn't go back to sleep...just logged a few minutes of lying in bed arguing with myself) is itself a small victory.
I'm starting to see a pattern here. I feel the sleep deprivation a lot more during the times of day in which I'm accustomed to sleeping. Mr. Pavlina reported a similar effect (he said he was pretty useless from 2am until about 6am), so I'm thinking this is a real effect of the readjustment and I just need to be aware of it and work on techniques to deal with it.
A couple of minor slips (apparently one a little bigger than I'd realized until I went to write this up), but that's ok. I feel I'm back on track to the joys of at least a week or so of feeling very sleep deprived. Now we get to see if I can keep summoning up the willpower to drag myself out of a bed a part of me really doesn't want to leave enough times to learn whether or not this is really going to work. I know all the little successes are just that, steps along the road, not really demonstrations of the end. I know the worst is yet to come . . . this morning was a good demonstration of that. It's fairly humbling.
At least I'm still capable of writing coherently, and get matching tags right the first time?
[15:00 - 16:01] That was an hour? It shouldn't have been...I know I stayed in bed a little long, but I would have put it closer to 45 minutes. Huh. I had a lot of trouble getting out of bed after this sleep cycle, and actually gave up for a few minutes and waited for my secondary alarm, but I didn't think the gap tot hat secondary was so long (it's usually been 10-15 minutes that I've set it for). Ah, well, this is the only record I have. I was very tired for a good hour after I dragged myself out of bed, too. At some point, though, I got an n+1th wind (I think I'm beyond second here). By the time the time came around for my next sleep, I was almost too alert. I had to drag myself away from things to go lie down and dropping into sleep was difficult.
[19:54 - 20:26] Perfect. The alarm went off and I awoke and got up and felt fine, just a little tired. Continued fine through to the next sleep, which I made sure to do on time this time.
[23:59 - 00:30] Spot on. "This is easy," I thought. It was like it was at the con...a little general tiredness/sleep deprivation in the background of my awareness, but not so much that it was a big deal. Most people go through their entire lives with this amount of sleep dep, covering it up with caffeine.
[04:45 - 05:18] Another easy one. I can handle this. I started to get really exhausted around 07:30, though...but found ways to keep myself occupied and push on to the four-hour mark. Not so bad. I need to keep remembering how important it is to keep myself occupied.
[08:51 - 09:25] So tired! I had to drag myself out of bed like one of those days where you feel like crap and don't want to do anything but lounge around in bed and evade responsibility. I'm not very good at that. I pulled it off though, and I'm awake and here to report. Up for half an hour and I still feel really tired, but it's starting to fade a bit. To some extent, I think this experience of demonstrating to myself that I can get up when I'm exhausted and it gets better may be the most important part of this whole thing . . . learning to awaken when I don't want to like most functional people have learned. That I'm up right now (and didn't go back to sleep...just logged a few minutes of lying in bed arguing with myself) is itself a small victory.
I'm starting to see a pattern here. I feel the sleep deprivation a lot more during the times of day in which I'm accustomed to sleeping. Mr. Pavlina reported a similar effect (he said he was pretty useless from 2am until about 6am), so I'm thinking this is a real effect of the readjustment and I just need to be aware of it and work on techniques to deal with it.
A couple of minor slips (apparently one a little bigger than I'd realized until I went to write this up), but that's ok. I feel I'm back on track to the joys of at least a week or so of feeling very sleep deprived. Now we get to see if I can keep summoning up the willpower to drag myself out of a bed a part of me really doesn't want to leave enough times to learn whether or not this is really going to work. I know all the little successes are just that, steps along the road, not really demonstrations of the end. I know the worst is yet to come . . . this morning was a good demonstration of that. It's fairly humbling.
At least I'm still capable of writing coherently, and get matching tags right the first time?
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To some extent, I think this experience of demonstrating to myself that I can get up when I'm exhausted and it gets better may be the most important part of this whole thing . . .
That's the thing that Steve Pavlina keeps talking about in alot of his posts. "Just try it. If it works, great. If it doesn't, also great, you'll still lean something from the experience." Of course he was talking about trying funky things in general, not just polyphasic sleep.